Ok……..i know u’re gonna think i’m a nerd or a low-life loser and if so please don’t read this
I am a 16 year old girl and i am NOT the average teenage girl u see in high schools and hence i get bullied a lot. I mean i’ve set aside guys because i think they distract me in my academic works and i’ve given up in makeup (haven’t worn makeup in 10 years:S) and trying to look hot. I’ve realised that that’s not what i’m here for.
My dream is to..*don’t laugh* …..change the world…mainly by providing a solution to the world’s energy crisis….by producing limitless, free energy for the world’s poor. Although people can’t seem to find just one solution to the energy crisis, I believe there is a solution right under our noses waiting to be discovered. I just really badly want to find it. I want to help people and i don’t want to sell my ideas for money. I want to share them with the rest of the world for the benefit of mankind.
I want to be a huminatarian and a *laugh* genius. Considering my visions, I am a lot like Nikola Tesla and he’s my idol. I can also fluently speak five languages like he did at the age of sixteen The only difference is that i think I am a LOT dumber than he is.
I mean yeah we got our results today and i got like 100 for pysics, 97 for bio and 99 for chem but what really puts me off is maths. I am good at it but i get so discouraged by it. I mean my face turned sour when i saw a 75 for maths ………..the first time i screwed up this badly for maths.
I’ve always felt that i worked so hard for it and just too dumb to write it in an exam. I put SO much effort into getting a good maths grade but now after all that hard work, i feel SO dumb
People who did everything at the last minute got 100s and 90s and this makes me think i’m really stupid. And worse if i am to pursue a career in scientific research, it’s not going to help if i am naturally dumb and need 100s of hours of work just to get an A in maths (the most crucial subject in engineering).
I just feel like giving up on my “changing the world by energy engineering” idea…….i feel so …..DUMB.
Help……if i screw up in maths, will it really affect my career and if so how can i be better at maths? I also have weak mental abilities……..
I wish i was like Nikola Tesla (he had a photographic memory),,,,,with strong mental abilities like he had …….Do you have to be born with it or can you develop it through hard work?
I know what i said above was too much to expect from a dumbo like me but i still think that if your will is strong enough anything can be done. I just need the guidance and confidence from people.
Right now i think my main weakness is that i don’t have enough resources to design my own experiments, and to demonstrate my ideas . Is there any way ( books, internet etc,) that i could learn more about engineering ideas to develop my designing skills. Don’t mention about my school, the people there hate me because i manage well without their help and always try to put me down so i can get absolutely NO co operation from them.
I also live in Sri Lanka which makes things harder since they don’t really have programmes which could let young people come out with their ideas, There is not much scope for research or new discoveries, they just borrow everything from the Western world.
Is there anyway i can design new inventions or at least help me to do so and how can i make my own lab at home?
I appreciate your time reading this
While it may sound cliche, everyone is on this Earth for a reason…and every individual has the ability to change the world we live in….for the good, or for the bad. You seem like you really want to make a difference, and have a lot of potential to do good things.
I am sorry to hear about teasing abd bullying in school. As a male, I have been there, and it is not fun. The best thing to do is not care what other people do and/or say, because if you truly want to make a difference, it is good to get used to being criticized regularly. I dealt with the same thing, and ignored it, did what I wanted to do, and when people realized it wasn’t bothering me…it went away just like that. Then, I had the best Senior year imaginable.
There are people who have NOTHING who can touch and change the world. You just have to want it. Watch this:
That’s just to show you the incredible things that anyone can do, even without the proper resources or abilities. Whatever you want to do….just go get it…
As far as engineering goes….do what you want to do. Don’t worry about other people around you getting better grades in Math. Your not dumb. Everyone learns differently. Try changing up studying. Instead of cramming the books, make up some kind of game, or cards or anything toh elp you learn. Remember, struggling is the best way to learn. The people who get the A’s will forget everything, but the people who struggle will always remember it, and be better off for their future.
There are so many great people that have touched and changed the world…they start with nothing, and their name is remembered forever, because they never gave up. I believe anyone can accomplish their goals. Good luck to you, and I hope everything goes well.
on: 20th August 10